The young daughter of Duane “Dog” Chapman and his late wife Beth Chapman took to Instagram on New Year’s Eve to reflect on the “worst year” of her life.
“2019 takes the cake for being the worst year of my life,” she started off the post.
While the year started out promising, on January 11, 2019, Bonnie’s best friend Elysia committed suicide.
The 21-year-old said, “I had promised her that I would be there to scare away her demons, to hold her when she was crumbling, but I wasn’t able to be there for her. This was devastating, I never had lost a friend before.”
Following her friend’s passing, her beloved dog LBJ passed away in Hawaii after having surgery. She also had an extensive list of injuries including needing stitches, burning her arm, and a hospital stay, among other things.
In late June, Beth’s health took a turn for the worse. She was in a medically-induced coma and Bonnie rushed to Honolulu to be by her side. The Chapman family knew Beth’s last day would be coming, but didn’t think it would be so soon.
Bonnie says she had been in therapy for years to prepare her for her mom’s passing, but nothing can really prepare you for the loss of a parent. All she could do was be there for her mom.
“My mother had woken up at one point, I apologized for being such a brat and she shook her head and assured me I wasn’t. That’s my last memory with her,” she wrote. “A memory that comforts me when I feel like I wasn’t a good daughter.”
She ended the post by revealing she has a necklace with her mom’s ashes.
Bonnie wrote, “I’m sad to never see her again, but I wear her ashes around my neck everyday since. She’s still with me.”
See her full note in the Instagram post below. Make sure to swipe through to read everything.